Who do I turn to now?

Dear Brian,

I feel like I have no one to turn to. The people I would usually turn to are either on missions, passed away, or isn't talking to me. Which is making this harder. Its not just your death I am talking about either, do you remember me telling you about the dark tissue in my eye, that might be cancer? Of course you, well it came back recently, and as of right now I don't have a doctor. I don't know what to do. I don't know who to talk to. You and Michael are both gone and the 2 of you is who I would look to for comfort. I know I can pray but I need someone on earth that can help as well. I feel alone in this big world and I don't know what to do. I am not as strong as you are. If it turns out to be cancer I don't know what i will do. I might just fall apart completely. Gosh, I miss you soooo much. I wish I could call you and talk to you, I have called your phone and listened to your voice mail, but its not the same. I didn't think I would miss you this much. I also never thought we were ever going to be as close as we ended up. I am so glad we met that fateful night be coincidence, yay for both of us loving to swim right? Love ya Bri, talk to you later. :) <3

Love,
Teasha