Dear Brian,
It seems like since you passed i have been on this emotional roller coaster. I will be ok for awhile but then something sad happens and I want to just fall apart. I dont know why but I cant seem to keep up my smile it always turns to a frown. I went to call you today just because I needed to hear your voice, and it was disconnected. This sent me into a low. I just started to ball. I wish I could be happy and keep they happy memories and move on because I know that's what you would want, but I cant seem to do that. Brian, its so hard. The cancer in my eye might be back again and your not here for me to talk to. I dont know what to do. I am not mad at you or anything but I wish you were here you would know what to say unlike everyone else. Please help me through this.
I love ya tons!
Love,
Teasha
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Who do I turn to now?
Dear Brian,
I feel like I have no one to turn to. The people I would usually turn to are either on missions, passed away, or isn't talking to me. Which is making this harder. Its not just your death I am talking about either, do you remember me telling you about the dark tissue in my eye, that might be cancer? Of course you, well it came back recently, and as of right now I don't have a doctor. I don't know what to do. I don't know who to talk to. You and Michael are both gone and the 2 of you is who I would look to for comfort. I know I can pray but I need someone on earth that can help as well. I feel alone in this big world and I don't know what to do. I am not as strong as you are. If it turns out to be cancer I don't know what i will do. I might just fall apart completely. Gosh, I miss you soooo much. I wish I could call you and talk to you, I have called your phone and listened to your voice mail, but its not the same. I didn't think I would miss you this much. I also never thought we were ever going to be as close as we ended up. I am so glad we met that fateful night be coincidence, yay for both of us loving to swim right? Love ya Bri, talk to you later. :) <3
Love,
Teasha
I feel like I have no one to turn to. The people I would usually turn to are either on missions, passed away, or isn't talking to me. Which is making this harder. Its not just your death I am talking about either, do you remember me telling you about the dark tissue in my eye, that might be cancer? Of course you, well it came back recently, and as of right now I don't have a doctor. I don't know what to do. I don't know who to talk to. You and Michael are both gone and the 2 of you is who I would look to for comfort. I know I can pray but I need someone on earth that can help as well. I feel alone in this big world and I don't know what to do. I am not as strong as you are. If it turns out to be cancer I don't know what i will do. I might just fall apart completely. Gosh, I miss you soooo much. I wish I could call you and talk to you, I have called your phone and listened to your voice mail, but its not the same. I didn't think I would miss you this much. I also never thought we were ever going to be as close as we ended up. I am so glad we met that fateful night be coincidence, yay for both of us loving to swim right? Love ya Bri, talk to you later. :) <3
Love,
Teasha
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Funny Story!
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Dear Brian,
So today was a really funny day, in my opinion. So I remember you telling me stories about you and Justin so after I heard about your death, I decided to add him as a friend on facebook because I knew this was going to be hard for him as well, so I added him and he accepted my friend request. Since then we have talked a bit and we even played the question game a bit. Well today we texted a little bit, then I went back to my painting, well my phone started to ring and since Amelia has been calling a lot lately I thought it was her but when I looked at my phone it was Justin. I thought this was odd because we had never talked on the phone before, but I answered it. It turns out he didn’t mean to call me but to call his favorite cousin. We talked for a couple mins then he had to go. But it was a fun conversation. Thank you for telling me stories about Justin, I am trying to make it up toUtah
Love,
Teasha
So today was a really funny day, in my opinion. So I remember you telling me stories about you and Justin so after I heard about your death, I decided to add him as a friend on facebook because I knew this was going to be hard for him as well, so I added him and he accepted my friend request. Since then we have talked a bit and we even played the question game a bit. Well today we texted a little bit, then I went back to my painting, well my phone started to ring and since Amelia has been calling a lot lately I thought it was her but when I looked at my phone it was Justin. I thought this was odd because we had never talked on the phone before, but I answered it. It turns out he didn’t mean to call me but to call his favorite cousin. We talked for a couple mins then he had to go. But it was a fun conversation. Thank you for telling me stories about Justin, I am trying to make it up to
Love,
Teasha
Monday, April 19, 2010
Why?
Dear Brian,
Why does it hurt so much to know that you are gone? Why must I feel this pain? People say I am over reacting and that I didnt even know you that well, I dont think thats true. We talked a lot, almost every night last semester, why dont people understand? You were one of my best friends, I miss you. I cry every night still. Are you doin ok? Are you better now? is the paint gone? I hope one day I will become numb to this pain but until then I will continue to hurt.
Love,
Tea
Why does it hurt so much to know that you are gone? Why must I feel this pain? People say I am over reacting and that I didnt even know you that well, I dont think thats true. We talked a lot, almost every night last semester, why dont people understand? You were one of my best friends, I miss you. I cry every night still. Are you doin ok? Are you better now? is the paint gone? I hope one day I will become numb to this pain but until then I will continue to hurt.
Love,
Tea
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Calling in my Ward.
Dear Brian,
Today I waa set apart as Ward Choir Director! Crazy i know! I am so new to the ward and didn't think that I was going to get a calling that quick. But I guess in a Student Ward it is different. I am so excited about this calling! I have been looking at songs and printing out music that I find! I can't wait to hear the choir sing for the first time! Other than that things are going very well. I painted the house and I am getting settled in quite well here. I miss you though, I wish I could say that as time goes on things are getting better but it seems like since you passed things have gotten more hard. I will continue to walk with faith in every footstep because that is what you would want. You have taught me so much and I will forever be grateful to you. i can't wait to tell you more about whats goin on here! Love and miss ya tons!
Love,
Tea
Today I waa set apart as Ward Choir Director! Crazy i know! I am so new to the ward and didn't think that I was going to get a calling that quick. But I guess in a Student Ward it is different. I am so excited about this calling! I have been looking at songs and printing out music that I find! I can't wait to hear the choir sing for the first time! Other than that things are going very well. I painted the house and I am getting settled in quite well here. I miss you though, I wish I could say that as time goes on things are getting better but it seems like since you passed things have gotten more hard. I will continue to walk with faith in every footstep because that is what you would want. You have taught me so much and I will forever be grateful to you. i can't wait to tell you more about whats goin on here! Love and miss ya tons!
Love,
Tea
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