Dreams...

Dear Brian,

I had a crazy dream about you last night. It was so real, when I woke up I couldnt help but think that maybe your not gone that you are still here and that I could call you up and talk to you, but then as I came to my reality i realized that you are in fact not here and that I cant hear you sweet voice anymore. I have been ok for the most part with how life is going, until now. This morning has been one of the hardest and I am not sure why. I love and miss you so much. I have found a song that describes somewhat whats going on but not really its calls "Crying for Me" here are the lyrics:

Got the news on Friday morning
But a tear I couldn't find
You showed me how I am supposed to live
Now you showed me how to die
I was lost til Sunday morning
I woke up to face my fear
While writing you this goodbye song I found a tear

I'm gonna miss that smile
I'm gonna miss you my friend
Even though it hurts the way it ended up
I'd do it all again

So play it sweet in heaven
Cause thats right where you wanna be
I'm not cryin' cause I feel so sorry for you
Im cryin' for me

I got up and dialed your number
and your voice came on the line
That old familiar message
Ive heard a thousand times
It just said, sorry that I missed you
Leave a message and God bless
I know you think I'm crazy
But I just had to hear your voice, I guess

I'm gonna miss that smile
I'm gonna miss you my friend
Even though it hurts the way it ended up
I'd do it all again

So play it sweet in heaven
Cause thats right where you wanna be
I'm not cryin' cause I feel so sorry for ya
Im cryin' for me

Ohhh

So play your upside-down, left handed
Backwards bass guitar
I'll see you on the other side superstar
I'm gonna miss that smile
I'm gonna miss you my friend
Even though it hurts the way it ended up
I'd do it all again
So play it sweet in heaven
Cause thats right where you wanna be
I'm not cryin' cause I feel so sorry for you
Im cryin' for me

I'm still cryin'
I'm cryin' for me
Oh
I'm still cryin'


So it kinda says how I feel but not really. I have alot of anxiety and I am not sure why, I just want it to go away!!!


I love ya tons Bri! Hope all is well!


Love,
Teasha