Two Months...

Dear Brian,

Wow, It been to months since you passed, I cant believe it. When I look back and see what has happened in the past 2 months it amazes me. I went from having no friends here, to having amazing people that I love as friends. I added Justin on facebook, and we have become pretty close. I got a good car that has an air bag, sorry Bri I know how much you loved the Saturn, but it had to go. I have signed up for college. I have in a way become more of a grown up then I was before, I know me grown up heeheehee. No but seriously, the past 2 months I have changed more then I think I have in my entire life. I have told people things that, I have not eve told you. Like some of my friend know that I have Bi-polar depression. I know I never told you, but you where goin through so much and you didn't need another thing to worry about so I just wanted to keep it to myself. I have told people about no being able to have kids and the long story behind that. But the one thing I still have problems telling them about is...You. I have a picture of you as my desk top background and i have your quotes up in my room and when people ask me who you are all i can say is "A dear friend." I cant tell them how amazing I think you are, and all the crap you have gone through and how much I loved you. When I do try to tell them I become speechless and cant find where to begin.

brian, I miss you everyday, I keep thinking that the more I get to know the people here the more the whole where you were will get filled but it isn't happening. I sometimes think that the some I talk to Justin that the whole will get fixed but thats not happening either. I dont know if it will ever get filled to be honest. But I keep trying because I know you wouldnt want me or anyone else to be unhappy. You would want this time of grief to be as short as possible. You would want us to keep moving forward, and not forget you but only remember the happy memories, so thats what I keep trying to do. I love you Brian, I hope you are having an amazing time on your mission.


Love,
Tea