Hard Times....

Dear Brian,

I have been thinking about you a lot lately. You seem to always be on my mind and I am not quite sure why. But I wanted to tell you something. I wanted to tell you that you are the only true hero I have ever known. You went through so much and yet you smiled and laughed and lived life like there was nothing wrong with you. You gave hope to those who had none, you were a light in the darkness, you were a warm safe hug when needed. And yet you were going through so much crap yourself, how did you do it? How did you live such an inspiring life and how where you so positive through all that came your way? I try my best to be as strong as I can but I am not as strong as you showed everyone you came in contact with that you were. You had such a strong testimony of the church. You had unfailing faith that you where in the hand of God, and that he would protect you no matter what. How did you trust him that much? How, how? I cannot fathom this. I try to trust him, but I cant. I try to believe that the church is true but I have my doubts. I have not gone throught nearly as much as you, but you knew it was true, so why dont I?

-Teasha