Brian!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh how much i miss you! I tried texting you the other day, yeah it didn't really work. Why didnt you tell me you wanted me in Utah?!? GR face! You know I would have been there in a heart beat if you would have told me. :P Anyways, Life is goin good. I am all signed up and ready to register for classes, crazy i know! I am growing up, I never thought this would happen! I have determined that I need you here so i can complain about all of my boy problems to you and so you cant make jokes about us dating. :P I miss talking to you till 11 or whatever time you and Justin madeit as you have to be in bed or you get punched. :P Love you mucho!
Always thinkin of you!
Teasha
Friday, June 25, 2010
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Hard Times....
Dear Brian,
I have been thinking about you a lot lately. You seem to always be on my mind and I am not quite sure why. But I wanted to tell you something. I wanted to tell you that you are the only true hero I have ever known. You went through so much and yet you smiled and laughed and lived life like there was nothing wrong with you. You gave hope to those who had none, you were a light in the darkness, you were a warm safe hug when needed. And yet you were going through so much crap yourself, how did you do it? How did you live such an inspiring life and how where you so positive through all that came your way? I try my best to be as strong as I can but I am not as strong as you showed everyone you came in contact with that you were. You had such a strong testimony of the church. You had unfailing faith that you where in the hand of God, and that he would protect you no matter what. How did you trust him that much? How, how? I cannot fathom this. I try to trust him, but I cant. I try to believe that the church is true but I have my doubts. I have not gone throught nearly as much as you, but you knew it was true, so why dont I?
-Teasha
I have been thinking about you a lot lately. You seem to always be on my mind and I am not quite sure why. But I wanted to tell you something. I wanted to tell you that you are the only true hero I have ever known. You went through so much and yet you smiled and laughed and lived life like there was nothing wrong with you. You gave hope to those who had none, you were a light in the darkness, you were a warm safe hug when needed. And yet you were going through so much crap yourself, how did you do it? How did you live such an inspiring life and how where you so positive through all that came your way? I try my best to be as strong as I can but I am not as strong as you showed everyone you came in contact with that you were. You had such a strong testimony of the church. You had unfailing faith that you where in the hand of God, and that he would protect you no matter what. How did you trust him that much? How, how? I cannot fathom this. I try to trust him, but I cant. I try to believe that the church is true but I have my doubts. I have not gone throught nearly as much as you, but you knew it was true, so why dont I?
-Teasha
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Two Months...
Dear Brian,
Wow, It been to months since you passed, I cant believe it. When I look back and see what has happened in the past 2 months it amazes me. I went from having no friends here, to having amazing people that I love as friends. I added Justin on facebook, and we have become pretty close. I got a good car that has an air bag, sorry Bri I know how much you loved the Saturn, but it had to go. I have signed up for college. I have in a way become more of a grown up then I was before, I know me grown up heeheehee. No but seriously, the past 2 months I have changed more then I think I have in my entire life. I have told people things that, I have not eve told you. Like some of my friend know that I have Bi-polar depression. I know I never told you, but you where goin through so much and you didn't need another thing to worry about so I just wanted to keep it to myself. I have told people about no being able to have kids and the long story behind that. But the one thing I still have problems telling them about is...You. I have a picture of you as my desk top background and i have your quotes up in my room and when people ask me who you are all i can say is "A dear friend." I cant tell them how amazing I think you are, and all the crap you have gone through and how much I loved you. When I do try to tell them I become speechless and cant find where to begin.
brian, I miss you everyday, I keep thinking that the more I get to know the people here the more the whole where you were will get filled but it isn't happening. I sometimes think that the some I talk to Justin that the whole will get fixed but thats not happening either. I dont know if it will ever get filled to be honest. But I keep trying because I know you wouldnt want me or anyone else to be unhappy. You would want this time of grief to be as short as possible. You would want us to keep moving forward, and not forget you but only remember the happy memories, so thats what I keep trying to do. I love you Brian, I hope you are having an amazing time on your mission.
Love,
Tea
Wow, It been to months since you passed, I cant believe it. When I look back and see what has happened in the past 2 months it amazes me. I went from having no friends here, to having amazing people that I love as friends. I added Justin on facebook, and we have become pretty close. I got a good car that has an air bag, sorry Bri I know how much you loved the Saturn, but it had to go. I have signed up for college. I have in a way become more of a grown up then I was before, I know me grown up heeheehee. No but seriously, the past 2 months I have changed more then I think I have in my entire life. I have told people things that, I have not eve told you. Like some of my friend know that I have Bi-polar depression. I know I never told you, but you where goin through so much and you didn't need another thing to worry about so I just wanted to keep it to myself. I have told people about no being able to have kids and the long story behind that. But the one thing I still have problems telling them about is...You. I have a picture of you as my desk top background and i have your quotes up in my room and when people ask me who you are all i can say is "A dear friend." I cant tell them how amazing I think you are, and all the crap you have gone through and how much I loved you. When I do try to tell them I become speechless and cant find where to begin.
brian, I miss you everyday, I keep thinking that the more I get to know the people here the more the whole where you were will get filled but it isn't happening. I sometimes think that the some I talk to Justin that the whole will get fixed but thats not happening either. I dont know if it will ever get filled to be honest. But I keep trying because I know you wouldnt want me or anyone else to be unhappy. You would want this time of grief to be as short as possible. You would want us to keep moving forward, and not forget you but only remember the happy memories, so thats what I keep trying to do. I love you Brian, I hope you are having an amazing time on your mission.
Love,
Tea
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Thank You.
Dear Brian,
I wanted to say thank you for being not only my friend but Justins as well. If you had never extended that hand of friendship to both of us then Justin and I would not be friends. Justin and I have become really close friends, which makes sense since he is your clone. :P Justin and I talk almost everyday now and I am tryin to plan a trip out to Utah so I can meet him, and see your grave. It was funny the other Justin and I were talkin and he said he was goin to hitch hike all the way here. :P It made me laugh. I wish that you were here to be apart of the fun, but I know you are in a much better and well deserved place. You have no idea how much you are love by Justin and myself, keep smiling Bri, and always remeber we love you. :D <3
Teasha :)
I wanted to say thank you for being not only my friend but Justins as well. If you had never extended that hand of friendship to both of us then Justin and I would not be friends. Justin and I have become really close friends, which makes sense since he is your clone. :P Justin and I talk almost everyday now and I am tryin to plan a trip out to Utah so I can meet him, and see your grave. It was funny the other Justin and I were talkin and he said he was goin to hitch hike all the way here. :P It made me laugh. I wish that you were here to be apart of the fun, but I know you are in a much better and well deserved place. You have no idea how much you are love by Justin and myself, keep smiling Bri, and always remeber we love you. :D <3
Teasha :)
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